MiLLA*S W0RLD

all falls down

2008-01-16T18:06:00.000-08:00

my song choice on here is so not how i feel anymore...im quite the opposite..i continued to believe and hope but nothing good has come or seems to be coming from the optimism..its REALITY i guess..im not throwing a pity party, who would come lol? (that made me laugh..) i just felt the need to express my sentiments to my blog lol.

ive come to the conclusion that i'll be moving sooner than expected..im gonna be a gypsy minus the big mole and carnie crew : )..if anything goes RIGHT, ill be updating my blogger quite often..with tales of my country wide excursion for a piece of mind or a piece of peace...its gonna suck if i end up in the damn bermuda triangle or if i end up on a slave plantation..dont front, we know they still exist.

on a brighter note..WTH is usher thinking, doin a duet with his fat old baby mama...UGH!

ranDUMB vol 2 or something

2007-12-11T09:09:00.000-08:00

that picture is so sad to me :( Gary Coleman is selling his Saturn on EBAY along with autographed photos of himself; parents shouldnt steal from their kids...i hope all the child actor laws are intact..cuz thats a shame..whats funny? he's UBER ashy and he's wearing CROCS!!! hahahahahahahaha :D crocs make me laugh. my sis loves her some crocs..anyway. thats it for now.

proNAILS!

2007-12-04T15:08:00.000-08:00

i am a major fan of colorfully designed flashy, tacky acrylic NAILS! i love em...theyre so cute..Kid Sister, an underground rapper from the Chi did a whole song in their honor...and look at them footworkin..i been on this song since mid summer! hahahaha look at kanye finger dancing lmao! :D

R.i.P.

2007-12-04T12:49:00.000-08:00

R.i.P. to half of the rap duo UGK, Chad "Pimp C" Butler, was found dead in his LA hotel room, there is no cause of death yet...this saddens me greatly, i'm not gonna jump ship and say i loved UGK so much..but i did like their music; more so was I a fan of Pimp C's big mouth and his constant poop talking...he called Russel Simmons gay on many occassions and it always made me laugh, cuz R.Simmons, needs to man up. Anyhoo..RIP Pimp C. :'(...as a natural born Texan, its sucks to see a Texas Star gone!

ranDUMB thoughts. vol 1

2007-12-03T14:38:00.000-08:00

i'm not really lost..maybe im at a fork in the road..who knows..anyhoo, i never saw that movie, LOST IN TRANSLATION..it just seems odd to me that Bill Murray, comedian extradonnaire lmao, can actually be in a film thats not comedy, maybe satire...there are a list of films i must see, books i must read, songs i must learn, albums i must acquire, collections i must start..but everytime i commence on my journey of gaining this knowledge, something impedes my quest and i am back to the fork in the road...deciding on this choice: LEFT OR RIGHT; the suck thing about this...i cant even tell my left from right on impulse..lmao :D :D!

so lately, ive started boondoggling (dont know what it is...GOOGLE IT) and its lost its appeal to me since 9th grade..i would scrapbook, but im not a fond member of the photoclub, id rather take the picture most times rather than be featured in the photo; i long to start MAGNUM TANGENT, but, i want to further my knowledge by way of college b4 embarking on the clothing line that awaits my much meshed future..although, im quite certain i could sell some items..and end up with a lil pocket change..and i say lil just because of the start up costs...which would mean, id be losing out for a long time until someone got wind of my shirts and started talking about them..ive pitched ideas/designs and not only have i recieved compliments..but i have gotten requests..so someone holla atcha girl!

the world of entertainment is lackluster at the moment..nothing to really feed upon to light my fire...seeing as how that distraught society amuses me momentarily..i just might have one of the strongest cases of A.D.D. ever known to man sometimes...i wish i was a kajillionaire; id invent stuff, make stuff, break it..fix it again, have yard sales, throw bean pies at lambos, paint on PLEATHER, graffiti up fancy hotels and run out...id run a muck! :D..

sometimes it seems as if we people who are uhhhh 'reserved' in their ways are longing to burst free and flit about making trouble, being daring, starting fires and watching them burn (all hypothetical..im not a pyro lol)..it just seems at this point that life is mundane..and im 'insane in the membrane' (not really..but thats all that rhymed!)...i long for more action, less questions...more fun, less guns...good food, nice drinks, pretty dresses, big heels..big hair, bucket a$% cars..being infamous for doing the unspeakable in the circle of people we know; not harming anyone in the process..not worrying about cash, feria, guap, doe, bank, SQUILLA, chedda, paper, yaper, gouda, $$...but who am i kidding; this life= C.R.E.A.M. Kanye says, 'having money's not everything, not having it is!' damn was he right.

s0Me SUPERHEAD :)

2007-11-21T10:03:00.000-08:00

i once had a blog (on MYSPACE) that i updated quite often...merely a mixture of ?'s i had about celebrities and las vegas...today i got kinda bored so i just figured id relish my old love for a bit :) enjoy!

bow wow and omarion are trying to...lemme see, maybe emulate hov and kells (best of both worlds albums)...bow wow has often proclaimed himself one of the best rappers out...NOT! Omarion with his airy voice, straining to hit a note..just cant do it...yea, this album is gonna sell like hotcakes (theyve set the release date for xmas time..hahaha slick slick) because teenaged girls are gonna want it...but is anyone actually expecting anything great from this album? im not...i cant even say its gonna be worth a blank cd..and the album cover is CREEEEEEEPY!

this is one of the many pics from Robin Thicke & Rhianna's spread in GQ...her boob job looks really good..dont even try to say she didnt have a boob job, she had maybe a teaspoon more breasts than me lmao...:D..anyway, my question is...i wonder how Robins wife, Paula Patton is feeling about this steamy lil shoot...

(that is one hell of a forehead! damn)

i cant remember where i saw this pic at...but i thought it was cool...those colorful skeletons seem to be spelling at drugs..aint that tight?

thats all for now..later

yE

2007-11-19T09:06:00.000-08:00

i found this youtube of Kanye breaking down at one of his shows in Paris...and it hurt to see it..i wish they would have moved him off of the stage..but maybe crying in front of an audience of adoring fans will do him so good..maybe show him that even with his loss..people do care about him..but isnt odd to care about someone you dont know...it probably is..but i really do, i love kanye. this is the video of him breaking down on stage...man...i love that dude. hahahahaha this is funny but the only thing i can think of is, 'when u cry, i cry, we cry together'...adios!

2007-11-15T09:34:00.001-08:00

THE WAY I ARE

2007-11-15T08:30:00.000-08:00

There are a number of adjectives one could use to describe me...the one i hear most is STUBBORN. I believe it to be a form of Stubbyness (yes, stubbyness lol) that envokes anger in others...yes, im open to new things, new foods, new enviornments, endeavors, adventures...you name it..ill try it..except bunjee jumping and skydiving :(, im set in my ways...independent to a fault, and i know that bothers maybe even offends some people. Do i do this on purpose? NO! Do i like being looked at as a PROBLEM? NO! If i commence in changing everything about Jamilla, what will be left of me?? A shadow of what once was? Does anyone want to be a shadow of their former self? NO! My stubbyness is just me trying to maintain my independence...the urge to not be vulnerable and need anyone...which if i said i didnt, i'd be lying...sometimes i go thru life on these kicks of having to prove things to people, making sure the people i associate myself with are well aware that, i can do this all by myself; similiar to the psyche of a child growing up...but im far beyond that elementary stage or am i? Is it wrong that i have the need to try to make things better, fix all situations, come to all solutions BY MYSELF? Yes...recieving multiple answers from many different sources throughout my life, proves that it is. Pride comes before fall...but isnt pride a trait desired by many people? How does one who has built up so many defenses let some of the most important go? Will this better my life? I dont know, will it better some relationships i have with people...I'm pretty sure it will. I hear 'em knocking but im looking out the peephole debating on letting them in. Common says, 'i love this way cuz i got it as a kid'..I continue to evolve and grow and hope that with time i surpass these mental roadblocks...but with all this self growth bs, will anyone i care about be left? i dont want to be perfect, i bask in the light of being odd, glory in the weird/strange...i just wanna be open..

condolences

2007-11-12T12:14:00.000-08:00

Donda West, mother of my favorite rapper, Kanye West died on saturday night, while 'Ye was in London filming the video for his next single...:(, im really saddened by this because i really do love kanye west and as a fan i know that not only was he his mothers only child but also a business partner; i cant imagine the grief my poor kanye is going thru right now. how i wish i could give kanye a great big bear hug ((and i dont even hug))...i just hope he continues on with his career and hopefully the media gives him the time and respect he deserves to grieve over his loss. (i hope that girlfriend creature of his is consoling him the right way...and i dont mean sexytime!) so R.i.P. Dr. Donda West. :(

just BE like this...

2007-11-09T16:15:00.000-08:00

i couldnt venture out on my weekend escapades without posting...i had that urge (( 0MG SANDI JUST BLASTED GABE FOR FLOODING...OMG. IM FINNA DIE...IM FINNA DIE LAUGHING...HE FLOODIN SO GOOD THAT HIS ANKLES ARE SHOWING AND I CANNOT BREATHE OMG..LMAO LMAO LMAO LMAO)) DAMN...THAT REALLY MADE MY DAY..OMG..SANDI REALLY BLASTED HIM SO GOOD! HE KNEW BETTER THAN TO PUT THEM TOO LITTLE ASS PANTS ON...THANK GOODNESS HE DIDNT HAVE ON THAT LIT ASS SHIRT! OMG!!! I CANT...anyway, i had to put this clip on my BLOG...i love common, i think he's a beautiful guy....you know how you envision your favorite celebs and how theyd interact with you...well Common didnt surprise me one bit..he was as great as i'd ever imagined him to be! wow...he's hella nice with this drunk lady and he didnt even kick her out of his dressing room. i love common, hes in my top ten list of rappers. go common...: )..

1LOVE----MiLLA!

&iW0NDER

2007-11-08T10:41:00.000-08:00

its 2007, we live in the great US of A and there are endless opportunities for those willing to chase them...but doesnt it seem like the dream chasers are always the ones who will never taste super stardom no matter how hard they work, practice or fight? i know a lot of aspiring models and wannabe rappers and actors/actresses..but it seems as if no one wants an educational background to fall back on..No, im not in school at the moment (come january i'll be tho lol), i'd be lying if i said i didnt want to be famous...free stuff, best parties, beautiful people, recognition for miniscule accomplishments, if thats what you want to call them; the people with the most potential let that potential fizzle out like the last few embers of bonfire...i dont want to call that a waste of talent, but its just like people that dont know their potential just wanna coast thru life and life isnt about coasting all the time...sometimes you gotta run a little...pick up speed and beat the next person, take what you think is yours. I dont have it in me to tell people to get real, youre never gonna make...like i actually have the right to tell people...its good to be optimistc..but dont be stupid. GET REAL...weigh out all of your options in life...have a back up plan for your back up plan...because i know it would suck to end up working at a hotel for the rest of your life or being the 40 year old rapper who never made it and "runs his own record label"...

thats all i gotta say for now...its been live blog world.
MiLLA!

up to par?

2007-11-06T10:37:00.000-08:00

chello again blog world! im becoming more and more enthusiastic about blogging as time progresses..which is cool, blogging is a mental release, just need to find that physical release and all will be fine ;)! onward HO!

im @ work at the moment and one of my coworkers comes up to me and dangles a piece of paper at me, smiling broadly, im slightly confused as to why he's showing me this paper that read, "NWA", the man who shows me this is a caucasian man and im like hmmmm...NWA, is he tryna let me know he's down lol...on the contrary he was showing me his ticket via North West Airlines, he'll be leaving Sin City to join his wife in South Carolina (she's in the army..he misses her)...we both shared a good laugh at this miscommunication.

today, NOVEMBER 6th, 2007 is the release of Sean "Jay-Z" Carter's, album American Gangster, an album hastily put together,(but i guess he can do that since he's jayz? or did he follow suit (beyonce did the same thing with B-day)...) which was inspired by the longest most droning film released this year titled, AMERICAN GANGSTER..the bio of Frank Lucas, drug lord turned snitch...(that movie was damn slow...geeeez) anyway...i'm a hov fan..not a diehard like some of my peers..but enough to know that jay didn't put that much effort into this album and that he did it merely because he could...im quite disappointed that he succumbed to the masses and did a song with Lil Wayne; to me that was a distinguishing characteristic as an artist...not working with someone who acted as a parasitic slut on everyones music...The song that features wayne..is lackluster in my opinion, the beat isnt the best and the theme of the song just sucks..I DON'T LIKE IT...its like an ode to the civil war...when the south meets with the north chanting, "broooooooooklyn..brooklyn.." not tight! if my ears and knowledge of music serve me correctly (i may be wrong..correct me if i am) number 3 is a sample of the lovely Mr.Gaye and his beautiful voice....he sure can hit them notes :)! I dont believe American Gangster (the album) is on the same level as prior Jay-Z cds...i cant just let the cd ride like reasonable doubt, the blueprint(2 of my favs to date) # 8, i know..produced by skateboard p, CRACKIN..i love that song..i need to listen to the ENTIRE album a bit more thoroughly, then i'll be able to give a better critique of it lol...Jay goes on to say that this album is the story of his life...maybe im just being harsh in judging this album...but why wouldnt i be, ITS COMING FROM THE KING right?? RIGHT! seems as if ive lost my train of thought, i want baja fresh, until next time blog peeps..im gone!

(a note) that nas n hov song..CRACKIN!

bL0GGa who?!

2007-11-05T14:13:00.000-08:00

this is uhh my first complete entry into this blog...in this blog you'll find lots of great ranDUMB stuff...WHY?? because i like it like that lol :)! anyhoo...i'll try to update this as often as i can...but if i dont, blame it on the MAN! ;)

lately, ive been on a sandwich kick..i love sandwiches..and in this hunt for a good sandwich, ive come across a variety of different ingredients, which make the sandwich experience very diverse lol. i think people forget that the bread that the sandwich is made from, is VERY IMPORTANT!!! no one wants to eat crusty or dry bread, thats hard to bite into...ive been the victim of this on more than one occassion..(i'll list the terrible bread sellers below)...this just puts a damper on lunch..when you go back to your desk and unwrap your sandwich, bit down expecting that lovely softness that youre used to...and you say hello to a stale piece of hell..NOT RIGHT!

PORT OF SUBS (dry wheat and white bread)

QUIZNOS (dry white bread) wth!?!

thats ridiculous if you ask me...subway knows whats up, they always have the best bread, Capriotti's has that good bread too...oh yea..cant forget good ol Jimmy Johns..now thats good bread...i know youre probably reading this like, "wtf?" but i need to inform people...CRUSTY BREAD WILL CHOKE YOU! you've been warned..im still on the hunt for good bread at sandwich shops across the Veg-ass Valley! (uhh aunt hatties bread..thats good bread too lol :D)

on another note I LOVE NEW YORK 2, comes on tonight!! i love that show! i know the show is fake and whatnot..but come on, that show is whats up lol..cant wait til BIG LOVE comes back for its next season, i wanna know how in the hell Albi is gonna send Roman, the ROMAN GRANT to jail..he's goin down..and i hope Nicky gets all in that a$%! until next time...adios gente~